Random Thoughts

Living a Dream…

Living a Dream of Love and Laughter
Living a Life of Happily Ever After…

~Michelle Istanish

Love Always…

Love Always Enchanted Moon, Lights, Tree and Deer Poster
Love Always Enchanted Moon, Lights, Tree and Deer Poster

Love Always
and Forever be

~Michelle Istanish

Thank You for Your Kindness


My inspiration for this thank you card design came from all of the people who have helped me during very difficult times in my life.  Sometimes my daily adventures take a bit of a wild, extreme turn.  Often this results in very exiting and fun times.  Then there are the times when they disintegrate into less than desirable situations.  No matter how bad my situation, there has always been a least one person who has helped me.

These people are family, friends and, many times, complete strangers.  When I reflect back on those moments in my life, I don’t think of the trauma or horror but of these people.  People who were kind enough to take time out of their day to save me from mine.  People who held my hand, distracted me with simple conversation, were kind, rescued me, spent hours and days by my hospital bed side.  I will never forget these people.  To all of those who have helped me, Thank You.  Thank you for your kindness.  It touched my heart and fed my soul.


Nightmare turned Fantasy, now a Reality

In the darkness
A nightmare
Then light
Now a daydream

Things once feared
A dream
Unbounded potential
Now a fantasy

An open mind
A possibility
Curious excitement
Now a reality

~Michelle Istanish

When Life Gives You Limbo, Enjoy It!

My Current Live Status

My current life status is officially…  LIMBO.  I love being in limbo.  It’s like I’m neither here nor there.  I’m not this or that.  It’s a time of great freedom.

Those around me have different reactions to my enjoyment of limbo.  Some feel excited for the possibilities this could bring, while others cringe and hope it doesn’t last for long.  I, myself feel that it never lasts long enough.

It’s often the case that as soon as limbo is in full swing, it ends.  Maybe the end is a punishment of sorts, for enjoying it too much.  Whatever the reason, I’ll still be a very happy girl, as I’ll be starting my new life plan or something even better.

Do you enjoy times of limbo?


If you were music…

If you were music...

If you were music, what would you sound like?  I love music and enjoy a wide variety, from Classic Rock to Classical, specifically of the Baroque period.  I think music can tell volumes about a person.

For me, what I sound like describes my current feelings.  Maybe it even captures my soul allowing others to hear and possibly better understand, like or even dislike me.  When I love a piece of music, song or album I listen to it ad nauseam, where ad nauseam could be defined as hours, days, weeks and sometimes even months.  I listen until I don’t feel it anymore, because what I sound like has changed.

While looking for places to travel, I have been listening to the music that describes these locations.  One location that I’m very interested in is Morocco.  I love so many things about Morocco, including what it sounds like.   The following is a collection that I have become addicted to.  If I were music, this is currently what I would sound like…


If you were music, what would you sound like?


My Bucket List (Item) is Complete

My Bucket List(Item) is CompleteI recently read a blog post by Nomadic Matt about getting rid of his bucket list and felt a small sense of relief that I don’t have one.  I mean, I did have one, sort of.  It was a list of one item.  So, I guess what I really had was a Bucket Item and I completed it two years ago.

His reasoning for getting rid of his bucket list went something along the lines of, he never followed it, didn’t care and therefore it wasn’t a list of items he was dying to accomplish before dying.  Then I wondered, was mine really ever a Bucket Item?

I wanted to see clear, tropical waters before I kicked the bucket.  I have been close to death a few times and while lying in intensive care, the thought of not completing this item actually never crossed my mind.  What I was thinking was, how to get myself better and out of this place as soon as possible.

If you remove the trendiness of the “Bucket List”, the Bucket List Syndrome seems to be a thing that happens to one when the end is drawing near and regrets all of the things one never did but wanted to do.  Maybe this regret is because they only did the things that society dictated appropriate and allowable.  I don’t really know because I don’t have that problem, although I know a few people that wish I did. 🙂

I have always lived my life to the fullest within my circumstances.  I want to travel but if I died tomorrow, I would have no regrets and nothing that I feel I missed out on.  I have had the most amazing life.  My life situation is such that I now have freedom to travel, an opportunity I’m most definitely going to take.  I will not be creating a new Bucket Item or list but I will be continuing on living a happy life, without regrets.


The Full Moon ~ My True and Faithful Friend

as day turns into night,
you burn so beautiful and bright;
as I gaze into your familiar glow,
I am filled with the love you selflessly sow;

once again, you cleanse my soul,
leaving me peaceful and feeling whole;
our time together passes by so quickly,
but in my thoughts you are always with me;

while goodbye is drawing near,
in my heart I hold you dear;
for now, it is until we meet again,
the full moon, my true and faithful friend.

by Michelle Istanish ~ just a girl who loves the moon